Heart felt

When people gets an upper hand,
they forget who they initially are,
focusing to get higher and higher,
neglecting the ground below them.

There, the revolution starts,
going agaist the forces,
balancing against relationships,
it may pleased one party, and
on the other hand, hurts the opposite.

It just take a courtesy to consider people's feeling.
Or is it, taking people's feeling for granted,
to redeem your needs, achievements & status?

在此，很无助。
以前以为自己很渺小的时候确是值得潇洒的一面。
然而，此刻，希望着，或许是可望着，
自己是潇洒的一个，很可悲的却是渺小的。


以为可以抬头，携带着自尊心，
信心的心态去面对充满挑战性的现实，却被潇洒的一族霸占了。
只好眼睁睁地，甚至充满羡慕与渴望地仰慕他人。


一心一意希望自己可以摆脱有心无力的状态，
踏近那潇洒的一族。

愿我早日找到合适的工作吧！

The day before P4 examination!

~~~~~~~ohh ohh ohh!!!~~~~~~~~

i'm super duper tripled scared nervous and worried on how am i going through
the 3 hours and 15mins reading time in the college hall tomorrow, with just my brain and my heart doing the signalling to my hands, and my eyes, fingers in order to produce a or probably few books of answers  to the question that my eyes sees and my brain analyses..


I 'm stressed out!!! What if , what if... ...


ergh!!! I gotta go back to my exam kits for more preparation!

What Would u Do?

I know is not fair to hang that in the air..
Why not just remain??


I'm insecure, i'm afraid of receiving..
I have to admit, i;m not ready..


But, however,
I love to keep the friendship~

Having lunch, having break! but No KitKat

What we do in college..
discuss assignments, lunch, later class... but here we slots in playful snaps... 


This shot was taken blurry cause they had a big respond when seeing i was taking the snap!!!

so, readers, my friends who know them, please figure out why is the respond for? hm@@ 



Yesterday Memories...

Hey, this picture was captured the best among all the attempts of targeting the best shots, having all of us gives our best smiles... ...



Who has the best smile? hahaha...

as i intended, take more pictures.. writing more stories, and gather more memories..

and i'm enjoying the things this... at least for now... 


 


Nothing to do, here in library taking a break before another class starts, i capture another photo directly from facebook account!

There...  photo published by PW, let me write the details about it!!


The secret is that i secretly had this outing with them!
oh SHHH!!!


while waiting another 2 guests to arrive, camwhore activity came around.. 


* successfully hiding yanZ pimples and having all in the pictures* hahahaha^^




The only thing that really restrain me is MONEY!!! But there is sacrifices and benefits we will get in everything we do right? My AFM revision class going start soon.. i'm ready to chau! bye!

testing testing

just trying whether is it successfully been merged... ignore this post if u would..

Browsing through the shelf..


After attended a modern teachings about Buddha Reincarnation, me and my family headed to The Curve for a window shopping..

weather was hot and humid.. shopping malls was the only place that we like to enjoy.. As i currently going through money shrinking period, i had nothing that i would like to search for.. So, headed to Popular with my intention to look as much magazine as i could! haha.. that eventually running out of magazine for me.. So, at tis moment, i was being thoughtfull about my AFM tutorials, nothing much i could do, so i headed finance section jux to had i glance on any books that MIGHT impress me little and would perks me up! so i found this Merger and Acquisitions that ans my ques at last!

CrossOver

hope i can...

as what i wrote in the title

to just cross the bAR..

I know it would be imPossible,

which i so much hope that it could be Possible..

Lets hope GOD heard my prayers..

And so goes to all my friends

who also will be getting their ACCA result too...

So.... FINGER CROSS "X"

Total Blow

Why those who ate Little g0t even lesser at the last bite?

While those who ate More got the bigger piece?


DaMn~~
Fire spread furiously within me
I could not even want to water it 0ff, and it g0t even furious-er...

At times, people becomes insane, yesterday. i g0t insane myself !

So mad, mad, mad! ! !

Urghhhh~ my Blood got steamed and boiled, it almost burst my heads out, and luckily it didnt! Sorry for being so impatient, but i have my reason! please be fair, i'm try not to glump down too much of f00d, and yet i'm given more, that is what i angry of! let them eat! cant they eat? why must i? dont treat him as a missy! Such a shame..

My mood totally g0t so bad until i cant study anymore, g0t so tired after that, where my energy totally wiped off.. hurg!

2nD day of Dazzed...

We, littles, but grown up starts the sounds of home alone-ing... ...

"c00chhook..bbrrruussttt..P0Ng!!! !!! !!!GGGrrrrreeeerrrrchhgggg..~~~"

the sounds goes on!

(so clumsy la me)

I'm juicing!
Checking what IN and Outs of the fridge... and those is what i found!
Baby Carrots, Tomatoes, Celery which not to my liking..(bleaark~), and Green Grape!

The ingredients--mostly vege

Baby Carrots : Sweeter than the big oneS...

Celery : Duhhh.. eat it raw-doesn't Taste nice for me... so blend it, so the taste could be masked. It also very nutritious!

Tomatoes : gives the reddish colour to the drink, as well as for our complexion>>>ANTIOXIDANTS!!!

Green Grape : Gives a boost of sweetness, vit -C! ( so, NO need to add Sugar-FAT FACTOR )

Here comes the blending, not juicing coz i'm using the Blender, not Juicer...

But however still, i got the Juices~~ haah!

Little bit watery i guess coz i added too muc of the water.. coz there is so little juice >.<

But it's okay~~~i'll try better next time... ... (Trying again today o.0)

Then, the vege pulps, the leftover from juicing:

Hmmm... i was thinking and surfing the net, thinking hard what could i do with it? Its a source of fiber too! What a waste if i just throw it away! (fiber help digestion and bowels)

The inf0 i g0t from the net was, hmm, used it on another dish, which i dont want to c00k another dish! unless i have the time! I may try it some other time though^^

So, i added honey to it and freezed it. ( half hour later.. i took it out impatiently, tasting it ) its like IceBlend with Healthy Flavor! ( what a nice snacking during h0t weather ) Besides, i tooks some out for mixing with boiling rice, the outcome was having a pretty looking rice (imagine having some orange colour on your bowl of rice~) The rice was g00d, but my rice cooker was a messed, coz the pulps went boiled all over, and i gotta clean it -.<

So tips: only put those pulps when the rice is almost ready, so the vege pulps will not dance all over..Besides, those pulp can be eaten rawly, so it does not matter whether it cooked or not...

Try it OUt, and dont hesitate to share feedbacks or any other easy cooking tips here!~~~

Gotta catch back up on my studies!!! cant bear the stress laa wei~~~ i'm Very dont
LIKE !!!

Seize the Opportunity

Second post in a row...
Well, hehe, it could be said to 'replaced' the missing posts when i'm away from here..

"People guess, people grudge, people grumbble"

Hmmm... ... ...

Complicated i guess.. Guessing game is never been easier.. Emotional get involved and affects own feelings..while Outright is never also been simpler..It takes courages!

So, which to choose?

I've seen people taking courages, and failures could just met up with them, how hurtful and discouraging and somewhat scracthing each others feeling and ended up loosing faith and trust..

While Guessing is just the opposite, but the impact would doubled on one side and making things unclear and is long term..

i know this would not be easily gotten over or rather ever-solved... i guess is NEVER though... I could do nothing about it, say nothing about it, nor think anything about it, although i'm one of the stakeholders here.. I 'll just be the passive stakeholder..

Yea, passive stakeholders as i in these situation is not directly involved in any of the matters, but rather being affected by it...Mentally affected... ... ...and mostly cover by fear, then when fear overcomed, stress comes by, then lastly, anger~

000ooooo.. How annoying is that!

"I knew these would never be Over"

Long Swept baCk

10 Nov 2009 (in my time)



Exactly half a year since my last post...
Yup, long huh~

No choice, no perfect opportunity for me to express here,
Unlike now, i'm alone at home, ignoring the text i had opened since morning but have not read a page... seldom that i had the chance to be home alone, at least for few hours though, so i decide to hooked up to fb, then here...

Flashing back the half years back, not really g00d, there is moments that i beared it through.
But, currently healthy, but not really mentally fit for the coming ACCA exam...

" STRESS-ssss MAaaa "

Hurghhh, internal sucks,now this..
gotta bear with this, time is not allowing me to grumbble further...

Everything passed so fast, my September gone~~~with little
memory.. i already COPE with it, glad that i over THAT..and already becomes a Fact... only i know..details in my personal diary, the paper i used was not in sequence.. >.<

God Bless the 3 drown UTAR's students,
so sadden by the news, dunno why,i just feel so sad..People juz gone like that,
which mins before, they was living in presence of others, and mins later, they
varnish and leaving the bits of theirs, the things they normally occupied

Left Untouched...

Hmm.. for now, i was wondering when i
will be back, hopefully often... hoping

i could owned my own laptop, and so, its personal~~

Chao!

Thank you very much.. my friend~~

As always, i'm down with comments, more comments

As always, i wanted someone to share with

today, i found...

thank you very much

its so nice to talk to you

i hope my secret will be kept with you too okay???

Besides, i found somebody

which considered herself

' thinking too much'??

Hmmm...

I wished i could help you in your problem too

I'll very happy to help you

But, i still blurr on your case though :P

Anyway, i would like to be someone who could

help to figure out or rather pull you out from the misery

As always, i see you as a cheerful person

but, i noticed

you are not that happy after all =====just like me

hope you can share more and voice it out

it feel better, really

Thanks~~

i'm tangible with shadow

Listening to the music of Yiruma
Holding the b00k of Professional Accountant
I think my mind was more towards the music
Forgive me for that

I want to express something
But you know
sometimes it just dont have the words to describe
but it tempted me to write something here

Mild hatred, dissactisfactory...
I want to complaint too...
Why it must be that way??
I rather not be there
I would not treat people this way!
I swear to my heart, coz i never like that feeling
It would be awkward to let that happen..( for me)

Trying not to feel bad about it
but its just way too awkward..
But at last, i'm just okay with it
coz i'm so ... ...
so ... ... ...

not strong enough!

i'm tangible okay....

Lend me a hand, if you are kind enough...

I'm going through risky path

which i doubt my success rate

I'm helpless towards myself

I burying myself beneath the ground,

i try to stand on the mudding path

but i cant help it

i drowning myself

I have no urge to carry myself

i want to cry...

Today, my presentation just on the easy topic

of Portal...

I cant...

I cant explain...

eventhough i knew it..

Pull me out..

Pull me..

想要的幻想

可能是个错觉

但我希望

是我的快乐目标之一

Let life goes its way

i wouldnt want to trap my life inside me

eventhough how bad i feel

Care would sometimes be Scare

I dont want to sail through the same old river

in which, maybe to deep

which i think i shouldn't even think of

knowing the bottom of it

让生活慢慢地在原地寻找

它认为它应该觉得舒服的那一点

想太周到

也许太不知量力

That why,

i think life will be happier

after what i have notice

Happy that i finally knew

the nature of life

Bottled up would have been Better

HOw many times i told myself

How many times i Fall

I still made believe that its over

I shouldn't have...

1St time wasn't that bad after all

Today,22 Apr 2009...

The day i took my resit paper

ABMF4145 Financial Management

I felt not bad after all...hehe

This is how it works....

Resiting a failed paper is just another try for us to strive better

it even allow us to get to know the root of this thingy

Time is the utmost thing here...

It allows us to do this...

and you know what

THIS IS WHAT THE REMEDIAL OF ALL!!!

Study is just TIME!!!

and, since a week before my exam, my parents went outstation...

as usual, i was glue to the desktop from time time

so ....

i did not able to read my study text!!!!

OMG!!!

dO YOU believe what i just said?!?!

Hmmm.... Hell NO!!!

Pressure is on me, man~~

How could i do that right???

I did read my study text according to my plan

at the same time, i'm having fun with gaming!!

Let me thank the new game in Facebook for it's contribution

"RESTAURANT CITY"

Wuahahaha...

Its addictive!!!

And i have to monitored it from time to time..

So can you imagine?

I make my eyes read the study text

and the another second my eyes was so glue to the game,

and I had to forced myself back to the book

But i found it was indeed collaborating!

i indeed had an enjoyable stuydying

but had a mental torture on gaming...

(as i said i need to force myself to get back to study:P)

So it's all about:

Facebook vs. Face-ING book

miSSING my W0rKIng L!fe

This is my 2nd day staying at home

after resigning from work(practical training)
And still i still misses my working life

where i have to wake up at 5.20a.m
and then stand at the front of the train,

experiencing the view and the railway path
Woot! it's so ghost movie's ride

when the train travels through underground..
Each time,

i try to remember the sequence of the stations...

(hehe.. just being bored)
And each time,

my ears are occupied for my musics and tunes!

"Thinking back there in the train one morning
While i was standing next to the d00r,
Smells of a refreshing chewing gum** "

i dont even know how it look like...
coz i dont dare to look up!
Well.. its my own fault!>,<

Hmmm.. no more for now!

Study text and notes is my accompany!

and i just cant stop touching the computer!

Anyone?! Hit ME!

OUCHHH..mental disturbance

Telling myself to get started to study!

Yes.. yes.. yessss... i'm g0in to... hmmmm~~~~

okaY!

I'm g0in off now!!

buhBye...