Things gone beyond control

All i have to do here

is to be silent

Silent does helped
In the silent

i hear myself

only myself

where there is nothing
surrounding me

...its empty

I need someone

to share

but

... ... ...
... ... ...

there is no one

i realize that i'm alone

Wanna pleased everyone??
Do i have the ability to do so??

the answer is NO

" I can't "

I have my limits

i have tried to pleased people around me

i cant even satisfy myself

I'm so stress

-very instead-
till i refuse to imagine

what will come in the future

I hate this

I really do!!!

If i'm not appreciated

that's fine

i'm not a pro...

i'm not perfect

I couldn't believe

This is what he thinks

deep down in my heart
i couldn't believe..

----speechless----

It stranded every veins and vessels that i have

blood pressure rise

that almost numb my mind

that is when my self consciousness

begin to numb

which make me a total dumb

"I wanna know"

what makes the sense out of his mind

that can make such statemant

such statement which is totally wrong

VERY WRONG!!!

I can't imagine now

as my mind is numb

i just can feel

the transition moving round

internally

words through my ears

it pierce through my heart

then my body

then my brain

then my eyes

Tears begin to fall

*subconsciously*

and my voicebox begin to crack

from being frozen

What is going on???

I wanna know!!!

i just being helpful

trying to hide the secret

of what she have done

that she told me to

Now,

i'm getting it

being blame for not concerning

Am i in the wrong???

It doesn't match the eye

World is round

no matter how far

i'm going through

i'll reach the end of the journey

But, the
matter is...
how hard

or how easy

is the journey...

HUMAN

have a very interesting behaviour

they love competition

thus create self-STRESS

among ourself

Everyone is unique

having different principles

Once in a blue moon,

unfavourable things happen

it just like

you got the wrong pair of magnet

no matter how hard you force

it never happen to cling

it's hard..

Mindset doesn't meet

the eyes of the other

it clash and crash..

Sincerity creates a fool

Middleman also a fool

where you intend to pleased someone

you are attempting to dig a grave for yourself

where someone might misunderstand you

eventhough there is no intention

to harm anyone

at the time you pleased someone.

Eventually,

you loose out

where it get worsen by instigation
of single sided.

HUMAN

are very funny creatures

blindly attract to one side

without considering the other side.

That is where the mistake and conflicts begin.

There are explaination

on the other side

that have not been spoken nor reveiled.