Things gone beyond control

All i have to do here

is to be silent

Silent does helped
In the silent

i hear myself

only myself

where there is nothing
surrounding me

...its empty

I need someone

to share

but

... ... ...
... ... ...

there is no one

i realize that i'm alone

Wanna pleased everyone??
Do i have the ability to do so??

the answer is NO

" I can't "

I have my limits

i have tried to pleased people around me

i cant even satisfy myself

I'm so stress

-very instead-
till i refuse to imagine

what will come in the future

I hate this

I really do!!!

If i'm not appreciated

that's fine

i'm not a pro...

i'm not perfect

I couldn't believe

This is what he thinks

deep down in my heart
i couldn't believe..

----speechless----

It stranded every veins and vessels that i have

blood pressure rise

that almost numb my mind

that is when my self consciousness

begin to numb

which make me a total dumb

"I wanna know"

what makes the sense out of his mind

that can make such statemant

such statement which is totally wrong

VERY WRONG!!!

I can't imagine now

as my mind is numb

i just can feel

the transition moving round

internally

words through my ears

it pierce through my heart

then my body

then my brain

then my eyes

Tears begin to fall

*subconsciously*

and my voicebox begin to crack

from being frozen

What is going on???

I wanna know!!!

i just being helpful

trying to hide the secret

of what she have done

that she told me to

Now,

i'm getting it

being blame for not concerning

Am i in the wrong???

It doesn't match the eye

World is round

no matter how far

i'm going through

i'll reach the end of the journey

But, the
matter is...
how hard

or how easy

is the journey...

HUMAN

have a very interesting behaviour

they love competition

thus create self-STRESS

among ourself

Everyone is unique

having different principles

Once in a blue moon,

unfavourable things happen

it just like

you got the wrong pair of magnet

no matter how hard you force

it never happen to cling

it's hard..

Mindset doesn't meet

the eyes of the other

it clash and crash..

Sincerity creates a fool

Middleman also a fool

where you intend to pleased someone

you are attempting to dig a grave for yourself

where someone might misunderstand you

eventhough there is no intention

to harm anyone

at the time you pleased someone.

Eventually,

you loose out

where it get worsen by instigation
of single sided.

HUMAN

are very funny creatures

blindly attract to one side

without considering the other side.

That is where the mistake and conflicts begin.

There are explaination

on the other side

that have not been spoken nor reveiled.

I wanna get outZ

uhhhmmmm

I wanna get lost from the picture

since i'm not appreciated

but being treated as an object

which create a veil

Being there

not beneficial at all

At the same time,

i'm also treated as not contributing at all

Things change

people change

feelings change

trying to get outz

i dont know when, how

to sort this out

I'm continued instead..

I wanna stay alone

rid all unfavourable scene

i hate being misunderstood

and yet totally ambiguous

on everything is going on

Anything behind me?

Beyond me?

Above me?

which i totally had no idea

~~Rid me off~~

Diploma Convocation on 13/7/2008

My first convocation

Diploma Convocation
held on 13 july 2008

~my memorable day~

Thanks to my mom
who help me in my appearance
and all the preparation..
"MOM..I LOVE U!!!

The day went by very fast

morning was the worse

So busy!!!
But it went on smootly

So happy...

that it cant be express by words

but in the following pictures

it tells a millons words

~~my parents~~

~~my chicky brother ~~

~~my pretty sis~~

~~my primary friend~~

me n shu ling

~~me, In Jia n Pei Wen~~

~~me n Jia Jia~~^^

~~me n pei sun~~
although is blur
but i need to treasure this pic._.

it seems quite nice^^

~~me n edmond aka Seng Li~~

look very bright><

~~me n Samuel aka Victor aka Kiat Leong~~

~~me n Kevin aka Boon Ping~~

this also very bright><

our New friends~~JOHORIANSSS

one big family:P

~~me n Mei Wen~~

~me, mei wen, n suddenly pei wen~~

haha~~~

~~Buddies~~

~upclosed 1~

me n pei wen

~upclosed 2~

~~me n B.kuan~~

with my bear in the picture^^

~~3 of us~~

~~ 3 of us also~~

~~b.kuan, YanZ, n me~~

~~pei wen , me n Timothy~~

I was just in time for this shot!!!

"thanks for ur little sunflower Tim^^"

~~Jia Rong, MeeFung, Tim, me n Bkuan~~
with meiwen posing right behind us

heehee

Finally... i finished this post... it really took me quite some time to had this done.
Anyway, i regreted for not taking any a big group photo.. i really do..*_____*
It would be more memorable that way...
But, having all memories in my head..
i'm going to treasure it and i hope everyone do.

Bye bye

Exhausation

frustrations

plus plus plus

all kind of feelings

poking through and over

but i;m still standing

and try to tackle you

PERFORMANCE MANAGEMENT

i known you for 7 weeks

but i hadn't put you in my mind

always put it aside

Now, i wanna know you further

But, it's time to say bye bye to you

it seems like a good thing though

No need to figure what you are

Whatever still,

keep in touch in cousework...

i'm getting exemption from getting to know you!!!

bYE bYE

cause and effect within me

Way of handling it

have been gettin up my nerves

this is the cause and effect within me

feeling agitated

cant get the way i wanted

and still

i cant really fight for it

sometimes i cant stand it

but i must learn to bear with it

i didnt care much last time

but i realize and eventually felt it

-so proud-

-try to tell me something-

but i dont want to KNOW!!!

because i dont feel at ease

where i dont have the chance

to reveil the truth

i ask

but know nothing

FELT LEFTOUT