Mengelut dengan MASA

Sekian lama tunggu, saya minta maaf ya...
Ini adalah untuk balas post YanZ..
Tahulah kini tengah mengelut dengan CW dan soalan tutorial
jadi saya ni pun makin kekurangan masa.

Sekarang dah memasuki zon tengah di sem kedua ni
Aku makin bergelabah dan makin takut
walaupun tahu akan kesusahannya
tapi ku tidak mengertinya and tidak cuba menghalangnya
Ku melanggar diriku ke arahnya
Entah situasiku pada hujung jalan
Masih hidup ke? atau sudah nyawa-nyawa ikan?

Masa pula tidak memyebelahiku
ia makin lari makin cepat
langsung tidak beri peluang untuk ku untuk melangkauinya
Ia tidak memerlukan masa untuk meneruskan perjalanannya
Tapi aku PERLUKAN!!!

Nampaknya, aku perlu mengelut bukan sahaja dengan pelajaranku
Tetapi pula dengan masa, dengan... ... ...

Masalah-masalah lain~~~

p0litic-ing effects!!!

The world is facing financial crisis,
While Pamela is suffering mood crisis.

Seriously speaking,
i really having a bad bad moments
I really hope i can get away from it
but it would never be...
unless i am financially independent

It's all about 'F&D' issues
It been involving arguments and dissappointment
The politic-ing is giving some effects now
although it's been hiding and gradually deteoriating for years
I cant stand the stupidity and dumbness
and ,aNd, AND!!!!
I had to voice0ut!!!

>>FRANKLY<<
i'm not afraid nor fear
i'm mentally ready for it
it just i wanted to make issue more clarified
But it just not reversing the effects of the issue that have been created by nosy people
These people have nothing else better on earth to do
They just LOVE driving people into deep shit
Let's be seated and see what M0RE ^creative^ issue to be done by them----cruel creature

我不知从哪里得到的勇气, 也不知从何处得到的冲动.
我出声了, 气了, 流泪了,抖了, 甚至容忍及悔过.
这次不是为了伤心, 而是不甘心!
容忍到了限度, 纸包不了火啊!

我曾经试着容忍,可能是包含了恐惧感
但,为了怕怕, 也曾经悔过
感觉自己没能力保护她的立场

现在的我,成了什么样?
把自己沉没在混乱的感受里头
想哭的感觉一直反反复复, 但泪水不流
是眼泪干透了? 还是泪根本不直得一流?

Please wake up!!! i urge you...
You have been victims for years
But you didnt realized
And you make us a victims too... ... ...

Raining---The D0wnp0ur---

Raining so heavily, under the pressure of the wind
I no longer care about how messy my hair was
My shoes soon flooded each steps i put forward
water splashes all over
There is no use holding the umbrella
the umbrealla was useless under the heavy downpour
It even drip rains on my head


My books was in my arms
seeking protection from me
My notes are all wet!
When i went back, I become "落汤鸡"


Today our class took the class picture at the college hall there ler... See...


Bit bit blurr hor.... cant really see Our face la...
Hmmm... this picture would be our memory in 1AFA 14


Just like yesterday when we were 1st met in the 1st semester
Just like yesterday when we actually leave our diploma

* missing DAC9*

Today very tired actually
Because i kena from my friends lor..
Today alone, already had several video and ugly shots!
i'm the one in the picture but i dont have one copy wo...
yer~~~ bad bad...

My picture very geng,
because it make me laugh like mad
until i feel so sleepy in lecture
zombie-ing all the way to the lullaby from our FR lecturer :P
I wanted to delete the ugly picture!!! but i cant...
My friends wouldnt let me><

But ,
Without it, i wouldnt know how crazy i was
Without it, i wouldnt had laughters
Without it, it will be swap away through time

But,
STILL~~~~

UGLY ~~~~>><<~~~~ uhhh

Then another interesting thing was
Steph gave me a lollipop
when i was fast asleep in the lecture ...
As i was enjoying the COCA-COLA lollipop,
the whole' head' went off
left the stick in my hands...lol
I get to insert it back some more...ahahaha
*this scene was captured in the video of Steph's hp*=="'

What a happening day.... uhmmm... tired >.-

Dimmed feelings

After the result have been released days ago,

My heart still remain dim...

I cant get over it...

I'm dissappointed, and angry with myself

With efforts pour into stuying tax,

it seems there is lacking of my effort

which resulting an unforeseable ending

i felt guity and ashame

Am i that useless???...

I dont care.. I cant just let this get me

This is not i wanted

I want something more...

I wont let this c0ntr0l me and pull me down

I will go against the odds

and get back what i would have

Have faith now,

better than regret later.

So, I need to start.. but how?

Mind mapping?

Heard of it...but doesnt know whether it does work on me though?...

There no harm in trying out...hmmm

3 subject in this semester!!!

oh!!! *faint*

CONVICED ME THAT I CAN DO IT

GUIDE ME ALONG WHEN I'M BLIND

LECTURE ME IF I'M IN WRONG DIRECTION

WARN ME WHEN I'M DRIFTING AWAY FROM FOCUS

C0RRECT ME WHEN I'M CARELESS

REMIND ME WHEN I'M F0RGETFUL

CHEER ME WHEM I'M DOWN

SUPPORT ME WHEN I'M I NEED ONE

Being tooo early when i rush to coll and found out... ...

Today seems very very hot!!!

and i had to g0 coll under the glaring hot sun!!!

Well... i went out late as my class was starting at 10am

so, i was rushing,brisk walking

holding a textbook which weight like a big stone

sweats drilling down

thighs getting weaker

shirt getting wet

#_________#

really hates the weather

But what to d0???

weather buzzing, and i'm late...

no choice...

Without thinking further i rush into the lecture hall

and sat down

trying hard to figure where is my gang...

hmmmm....

at the same time...

want to keep up with the lecturer

After around 5 mins.

I realize that i was in the wrong lecture

but i 'm in the correct venue!!!

after checking with friends,

i realize i was a complete nerd!!!

i'm 2 HRS EARLY!!!

What else can i d0...

i might just listen to the lecture of

"Basic Auditing"

:P

Dont know why

i was tentatively listening to the lecture! .0.

and paying every attention...

ALONE

ALL BY MYSELF

Amazing and Relaxing

maybe it due to stress free

as the subject had been tested for...

Uuh... hot day... and
hectic...

好烦闷！

讨厌对我而言是种厌倦

因为不只一次了

所以产生厌倦

眼睁睁地看了令人发脾气的场面，

听了听令人烦闷的话与语调，

这一切一切。。。 。。。

不知如何引起，何时发生

我讨厌狗狗这样的对待白兔

不理不睬

喉咙正在打滚的懆气，很想很想的像恐龙

喷吐出来！！！

但可以吗？后果会怎样？

不晓得。。。

所以， 尽量的默收我的冲动

别让这一切触动我的心

不是我没良心，不关心

只是。。。

我只能简简单单的说：

“白费力气，无能为力。”

很想把这一切冷冻起来

把烦闷停止

另一方面，让快乐停留。

二十岁的感想

活了足足二十年的我

都该从口袋里爬出来了吧！

虽然口袋里的天空好温馨

但却缺乏了自我

我要的东西

可是多了。

为了迎接“二”世界

我该写下我的感想的

一：为自己，大胆些

二：为前途，发奋些

三：为自己和他人，给自己和他人多些机会

三项先为主。。。